Summer 2009

So last year I made a poem about Summer 2008 ending..this year it will obviously change because I'm having to rhyme with nine instead of eight...so..umm..there

Oh how I loved Summer 2009
where the sun didnt always seem to shine
because the rain crossed a line
and said this world is all mine.
But I still adored Summer 2009.
Chic-fil-a was my favorite place to dine
and I realized my boyfriend is oh so fine.
But he is gone so now I must pine
Oh I think I might have to drink some wine
but no says the contract sign
I musn't drink anything from the vine.
No, no..*sighs*
Oh Summer 2009 you were just so divine..

TADA!!!!! and I wrote that in 5 minutes I'll have you know. Big news coming up..well I guess it's big and I guess it's news..but regardless I have something to share next time around..well maybe next time..ehh, I guess you'll just have to stay tuned to find out.. :)

Who writes,
Stefjenny

Summer Blues

Do I have the summer blues?
hmm..no..not exactly. I no longer have a job..no I wasn't fired..no I didn't quit..it's basically a long story of people not keeping their word so I basically have no job because they don't need me to work..which is a load and a half meaning I'm too lazy to start you and too cheap to let you work.

On the plus side? I got to spend all week with my nephew last week. That was a lot of fun. He's 5 weeks old now and he is squirming and noisy and I love him to pieces! It's already hard not to spoil him to pieces..I got him two presents yesterday..lol

Next week: Adam's parents are coming for a few days and will be here for the 4th of July. It will be good to see them again and show them my side of the country. :)

I don't have much to report..I would write some kid stories but I'm really bitter about the whole thing...so ask me on the phone or something or send me a message and I should be able to share some.

Hope you all are enjoying your summer!

Who writes,
Auntie Stefjenny :)

I am aware

I stink at this..I really will endeavor to do better especially since I have some GREAT stories from my job with 5th-8th graders..truly they are great stories. I kid you not. However, I have to get ready to go on a date with the boyfriend, so I will leave you with this.

My 21st birthday is on Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who writes,
Stefanie Rae

Feels like Forever..

Right?
Yeah I know. I haven't updated in over 2 months..whoopsie..School has been crazy busy and when I thought about posting I just kind of chose to do something else. Everyone has probably stopped checking my blog even..*gasp* well..I'll just have to call in the masses. So what is new in my life? Well..I have 11 more days of schools..thank goodness!!! I have no summer job yet. But I'm hoping something will turn up..something kind of fun and that will look good on my resume. Adam is coming to live in my town for this summer. =) I'm so excited..it will be nice to have him so close for longer than a week. He will be working at WIVK in the morning for an internship. Hmm..let's see what else is new. I went to Disney World for spring break with my parents! I had a blast..I really love it there. It is my happy place...for real. Umm..my nephew is due in just a few weeks. I can't wait to meet the little guy. He'll be a heartbreaker I'm sure. Although he is from my family..and we are usually too sweet to be heartbreakers. Ooo..I know what else I wanted to say. I got front row tickets to the mat kearney/erin mccarley concert for June 19 at the Bijou in Knoxville. I'm super pumpeda nd excited to go! Anything else I needed to report? *thinks* *ponders* I can't think of anything else. Oo! Yes I can! Next year I'll be living in the student apartments with only the three coolest girls ever! :) Can't wait! Alright..well that is my last update. I will write again soon..I PROMISE!

Who (tries to) write,
Stefjenny

Love is in the Air

Well..it's no surprise to any of you that Valentine's Day is coming. I'm pretty sure we all know that. Some of us are happy about that, while others choose to try to forget. But none of us can ever really forget. When I was little..Valentine's day meant decorating a pretty shoebox and getting Valentines from all the kids in my class. It was required that you give one to each student so as to not let anyone feel left out. That's a pretty good policy..because some kids are cruel and would make sure some little kid didn't get any Valentine's. No wonder so many people hate this holiday. Anyways..I even remember in 6th grade..keeping the Valentine one of the boys gave me because I liked him so much. *rolls eyes* It blew up in my face in 7th grade when some girls in my class told that boy. Oh..middle school..how I DON'T miss you. I don't even remember what it said that I thought it was sooo great..other than I think it was a toy story valentine and had the words Love, (his name inserted here). Sixth grade was the last time my whole class exchanged valentines..and I was sooo glad for that.

After that age though..Valentine's Day becomes more of a romantic thing. If you didn't have a boyfriend..that meant no candy, no flowers, no card and that meant a sucky day for you. I spent most of my Valentine's Days alone without a boy and usually spent it at home. Until 10th grade..when one of my guy friends who liked me asked me out. I didn't really like him like that. But it was a good time of going to eat out and getting icecream. I also got my first flower, a pink rose, that day. I think that's when I started to hate Valentine's Day less. I mean I spent the next three Valentine's Days alone..but it was almost a day for me to be nostalgic. A day for me to look forward to when I actually had someone to share it with. Plus, my parents are notorious for giving me little things for Valentine's which always softened the blow.

Also..in the last I don't know 2 years I guess..Love has been blooming everywhere. Now..I have two possible theories for this. One being that people are just getting more loving to each other..people are just pairing up like they usually do in the springtime, but will eventually break up and that it is nothing really serious, and it might just possibly be that I'm ignorant and didn't notice it before. My second theory is that I'm at that age now where everyone I know is getting engaged and married or even just dating seriously. I am pretty sure that is at least part of it..but my cousin got married last year at 38, my brother the year before that at 31, my sister in december at 29, my best friend at age 20..now I have to ask myself see..that doesnt really seem to have to do with me being a certain age where my friends are getting married..Because most of these people were old enough awhile ago. So is it something in the air? perhaps the water? The same water that is turning all pregnancies into little baby boys? The world may never know.

All of this to say is..my boyfriend is coming for Valentine's Day..and I'm extremely excited to spend it with him on my surprise date. =) But I can always commiserate and understand why sooo many people hate it. That 6th-9th grade version of me understands completely!

Who writes,
Stefjenny

Laptop Help!!!

Hey everyone! I was wondering if anyone might be able to tell me what is wrong with my laptop/power cord/power jack/I don't know. A few weeks my power cord stopped working..but then I realized it would work if I taped it a certain angle on the computer. The internet seems to tell me that means it's a broken power jack.. But then today it won't charge at all and my AC Adaptor beeps at me. I ordered a new AC adaptor..but does anyone know what might be wrong with it? Or if lots of things are wrong with it. Please help if you know anything!!

S

It's been a long day..week..year..time..

It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is make it strong
It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is I've been wrong
So take a leave of absence
Tell me you'll be gone
I don't want to see your face
It's been a long day
And I just want to hide away
It's been a long week
And all the lines come down heavy on me
It's been a long week
I'm finally feeling like it's okay to break
into a thousand pieces
no one can replace
only I can find my way
It's been long day
And I just want to hideaway
It's been a long year
And everyone around me's disappeared
It's been a long year
And all this mess around me's finally cleared
So can I have a moment just to say hello
Can you let your anger go?
It's been a long year
And I'm finally ready to be here...

This song is sung by Rosi Golan..I first heard it on my favorite tv show...everyone should know what that is..no? fine. you fail. Anyways, it's One Tree Hill. I quickly grew to love it. I think it's because the words kind of ring true in my life. However- it's taken me more than a year to conquer my wanting to just hide and not be angry. That's why my title has time written on the end of it. I'm actually waiting to say the words "And I'm finally ready to be here." I think the reason I like this song so much is because it is the start of a new year..It's January..and if you know me..you know how much I really don't like January and February..I don't believe in luck or karma or any of that junk..but I must say January and February don't really have good track records for me. But this time every year I get contemplative..I reflect and I try to let the past just go and be the past..trying to be ready to be here..not necessarily here at school (although most days I'm still trying to adjust to that too even as a junior)..but more importantly I'm trying to be ready to be in this moment..right here..where I am..I think I have some more growing and healing to do before I can be ready..but I do really like this song..and you should go listen to it..it's on my myspace profile if you want to listen... www.myspace.com/stefjenny88

Who writes,
Stefanie Rae

Texting..

Is it good or is it bad? It's both in my opinion. However, I find it to be mostly bad and slightly obnoxious. Let me tell you why I don't like it much and then the times where I think it is good. First of all, texting takes out the wonderfulness of an actual phone conversation. Instead of hearing someone's voice, you text an ENTIRE conversation. A five minute phone conversation becomes at least a 30 minute texting conversation. Ridiculous? I think so. Not to mention there is something nice about hearing someone's voice on the phone..especially my boyfriend or just talking to my mom about our day. Reason 2 I hate texting. Sometimes, I find that is rude and distracting. If someone in the movie theater is texting and I see their little light blinking or hear them clicking or hear the vibration..I get a little frustrated. It's okay if it is done once like maybe to tell someone they are in the movie..but seriously..the whole time? Why didnt you just bring that person along then??? Also, I think it's kind of annoying when you are trying to talk to someone and they are busy fiddling with their phone or texting someone..I had a friend like this once (we arent friends anymore for many reasons =( )..but when we would hang out I constantly felt like she would rather be talking to someone else. If you are hanging out with someone, dont text someone else the whole time. It's frustrating. Another example is this other friend of mine while we were on a trip to do mission work texted a majority of the time..making it really hard to talk or get to know them. Also, electronics were supposed to be used to a minimum. Also, texting your boyfriend or girlfriend all day long isnt romantic to me. 1) Talking on the phone and spending real quality time with each other seems betters and 2) It eventually leads to your being bored with one another b/c you've run out of things to talk about. Anyways, those are my reasons for not liking texting..I could probably keep going, but I won't.

The pros:
It's handy for when I am in class or somewhere else and have to ask someone a question and I obviously can't get on my phone right now. It's also nice if I just have one thing to say to someone such as "Had fun tonite..see you tomorrow" or something to that effect. It's also nice to get a text message in the middle of the day from my boyfriend that says "hope classes went well..love you." And there is also another pro..however, it is a pro which kind of makes us all pansies. It's when you really dont want to talk to someone- you are either afraid, don't like them, don't want to hear what they have to say, etc, etc. This is probably a bad thing- because we probably should call that person- but as a shy person and one who likes to go under the radar..I will count this as a blessing from time to time =) However, I still feel like texting is taking over the world.

Alright, so this will probably offend some people..but oh well..it's my blog and I can post my own thoughts right? School starts Tuesday. Bleck. Not even a little excited.

Who writes,
Stefjenny

Let's Go People!

Alright, people. We need to make a deal. I will post more if you comment more. The last three posts I've got nothing. That means I have no incentive to write. You want to know about my life and my accident proneness? How about my paranoia which at times is actually valid..or maybe you prefer just to laugh at me. I'm comfortable with that. But we must write comments or else I feel like I'm writing to myself. And that is depressing.

So I came back from Kansas today. Flying just isnt what it used to be that is for sure. It's much less organized and more frustrating than it used to be. Pretty much every flight is guaranteed to be late which inevitably screws you over..like today. In a nutshell, I got up at 5:45am and rode in the car for 2.5 hours only to find out my flight had been delayed two hours which would cause me to miss my connecting flight in Atlanta. After an hour of waiting I was "rerouted" except then I had to check in somewhere else, where there was an abnormally long line. Apparently I had priority access meaning I could've skipped that line, but NO ONE told me that. So I waited. Thirty minutes later I get to security. "Finally, I'm free", I think to myself. I didnt really have time to tell my boyfriend goodbye..that was REALLY depressing. Then I find out that I've been chosen for a random search. Now those who know me know that one of my fears in life is not flying oh no..I got that down for the most part..I fear airport security. It makes me nervous. And here I am already late, no time to spare to get to my flight, and I have to take 15 minutes I dont have to get patted down and have my undies and personal belongings thrown up in the air. Grrness. But I made it..just barely. Ended up in the Dallas airport..which by the way is extremely confusing. I pretty much hated it. Got cheated by subway..needed to bust out the ruler. Apparently in the economic crisis 6 inch sandwiches went to 4 inches but they still tell people it's 6 inches..like math suddenly changed or something. But at least I'm at home in one piece. Hope everyone had a good New Year's. Write comments and tell me what you did. I was going to write about my topic piece which is about texting..but this seems long enough. Write comments or I'll beat you all up =)

Who writes,
Stefjenny

P.S. Just a Reminder Santa

Pst. Santa. I thought I'd remind you that I wanted Michael Phelps for Christmas ;)

And since I got really good grades this semester can I have Rockband too?

Thanks,
Stefanie

(I forgot to write this on my post from earlier..check that one out if you havent)

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good break!

Well, we finally did it. The semester is over, and Christmas Break is here. YAY! It's a good feeling to know that I don't have to do school work until the middle of January. Don't you agree? *basks in that glow for a moment* *shakes body back to reality* Okay, so December was a busy month for me. My boyfriend came to visit me the first weekend of December and to go with me to my sister's wedding. My sister was married on the 6th and I was in my third and final wedding for the year. I'm a pro at being a bridesmaid. I'm starting to feel like the girl from 27 dresses. =) It was a lovely wedding and now the new married couple are staying with us for the holidays. Adam and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary on the 16th of this month. Well we tried to celebrate the best we could with finals and being away from each other. We celebrated a little bit early. He sent me the most beautiful roses which are sitting in the family room as we speak. =) Also, on Tuesday I will know if I'm going to have a nephew or a neice. I'm most excited to find out. I think it's going to be a little boy but we shall see. Also, on the 29th of this month I am flying out to Kansas to spend New Year's with Adam and his family. I'm pretty excited. It's only my 2nd time out there so I'm looking forward to it. hmm...am I missing anything? I'm not sure. I dont think so. Next time I'll try to write about my topic of interest piece.

Merry Christmas Everybody!!!

Who writes,
Stefanie Rae

Update Coming..Internet=Stupid and Broken

I will update on my life soon and also I have a topic of interest blog which I havent written in awhile. However, the internet isnt working and I am in the lab therefore those two blogs will have to wait until the internet begins to work. Short update now:

Busy weekend: Adam here and sister's wedding..sooo good but sooo busy
Last day of classes:Wednesday
Finals next week
Coming home the 17th..SCORE!

Write more later..I swear! =)

Who writes,
Stef

One More Week...

Can she do it ladies and gentleman?

I sincerely hope so.

I've also realized that when things are looking good and there are exciting things to happen..school puts a damper on these things. It makes life less enjoyable. Everything in life will be going swimmingly and then you remember that paper you have to write and that huge monster quiz that might as well be a test to study for.

This is especially true right before Thanksgiving. It's like teachers look at you cackle to themselves and watch us, the little peon students run around squealing because we cannot decide what is more important. And the worst part is is that it is almost impossible to feel motivated when you know turkey is coming around the corner. Also, the bigger the project and the harder it seems the more you just want to blink your eyes and make it disappear in the dark abyss. Someone really needs to invent one of those..and the one under my bed doesn't qualify. Instead, a hole in the ozone needs to be created for ideas and homework that is really terrifying.
Let's make up a total hypothetical assignment to put in this black abyss. Let's say you have this 9, no 10 page paper on a topic related to John Dewey. And to make this a little better more fun to throw in the abyss, let's say you have to have a presentation on it. Ooo, and the professor asks you all kinds of questions to watch you squirm and think to himself, "wrong..nope that's wrong too." Yes..let's throw that assignment in the abyss first since it's just a hypothetical one and see if it works.

I lied.

Not hypothetical. Not even close. I can never just look forward to my turkey. Instead, I have stress to get to the turkey and figure out how to add time to my 24 hour day. Like having a 27 hour day or possible buying a stamp that I can wear on my hand that will freeze time around me. I know. I am kind of odd. I like it though.

Okay, so Joey Pigza my little fictional ADHD child says to not focus on three bad things in a row and since I have like 6 written out, I'll bring a positive one to the table. I got a package today from my mommy consisting of 4 children's books (YES! I LOVE THEM!) and the movie Elf...I heart that movie with everlasting heart. Positive thing number 2..I get to go to Disney World for Spring Break. YAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY! Okay. I will stop so I dont rub it in anyone's face. I'll save that for another time.

Hehe.

Cheerio Darlings!
Stefjenny

Procrastination at its finest

Alphabet Surveyyy

[a]ge: 20
[b]estfriends: they know who they are
[c]hoice of meat: umm..steak, chicken, and turkey
[d]ream date: going to a garden
[e]xciting adventure: traveling europe
[f]avorite food: chocolate!
[g]reatest accomplishment: graduating salutatorian
[h]appiest day of your life: anyday I'm with my family or Adam
[i]nterests: lots and lots and lots of things
[j]ello?: the red one..strawberry is it?
[k]ool-aid?: the red one..what is it?..fruit punch?..basically I like red stuff
[l]ove: yes..what about it?..I like it
[m]ost prized posession: I have several of those..my jewelry box from my grandma mootzer, my necklace from adam, my salutatorian medal, the locket from my parents
[n]ame: Stefanie Rae
[o]outfit you`re wearing: boxer shorts and a tshirt
[p]izza topping: pepperoni only!
[q]question most asked: what?..no really what does this mean?
[r]adio station: star 102.1
[s]ong: right now?..Mercy
[t]elevision show: OTH!!!!!!
[u]r favorite movie: The Sandlot
[v]aluable things in life: family, friends, love, my Savior
[w]here you live: college right now
[x]yz: umm..sure
[y]your biggest secret: if I told you that would make it not a secret..
[z]odiac sign: Gemini

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Busy as a Beaver

So...I havent had any time to write lately. The rest of my fall break went well..no more food poisoning for me so that's good. Stefani and Aaron's wedding was very lovely..one of the best I've ever been to. I loved every minute of it..it was so nice to be outside and dancing. :) I've been busy trying to do lots of schoolwork such as working on my intercultural experience project and I havent even started that 10 page paper..both things due before Thanksgiving. Once again, professors want you to suffer before you are allowed to eat turkey and get fat. But the good part is that I dont have to do hw during break. I've also been helping out with the fall play for practical service, because you see I wasnt busy enough already. *c'mon get real face inserted here* But my mind is shot for funny things to write about. I could write about the election, but that would mostly just make me irritated. I could talk about how desperately I need to get away from this place..but that would irritate people. So what am I going to do. Be mindless and post a survey here. Okay? (you have no choice so just say okay.) ok.

Stefanie's Laws

So has anyone ever heard of Murphy's Laws? You know the laws like "if you fiddle with something long enough it will eventually break," or "if anything can go wrong it will."

Well I'm thinking I'm starting to compile a list of my own list of laws that apply to myself. The first one being:

1.) If it is a school break, you will get sick. (And if your boyfriend is here it will last just while he is here and then magically go away..but dont worry it will be really bad while he is here.)

So for 4 days I was permanently best friends with starvation and flat sprite thanks to food poisoning at Chili's where I will never ever go again.

My second law is:

2.) If there is anyway to possibly get hurt, you will find it. If there is a window open, your hand will get smashed in it, corners on furniture? your leg will find it. A phone charger lying on the floor? Your legs will magically get wrapped up in it and you will fall flat on your face. You get the picture.

The third law is:

3.) Everything must come at one time. We cannot space things out for you sorry, that would make you happy. Instead, we will make sure you have to hyperventilate and run around screaming, "the sky is falling" so that the world may laugh at your busy insane little self.

Okay..that is all for now. I am sure I will have more of those. I hope everyone else enjoyed their break. I am skipping school thursday and friday so I get a second break. The reason is because my best friend's wedding is Sunday and I didnt feel like driving all the way back here. So yay for me! But sadly there is no Adam here now. =( See law #1

Who writes,
Stefanie

Irony

So I read 140 pages in Rape of Nanking yesterday.

An hour after I finished reading for the day (after like 6.5 hours) she sends an email telling us she is postponing it a week and a half.

Figures.

That is all.

YAY for the Weekend! Boo on Nanking!

So..I'm uber glad it's the weekend. I can't believe I made it through this week but I did. Next week will be super crazy too..starting like *looks at watch* okay really right now. I have this 225 page book to read and a 5-7 page paper to write about it..that I havent had the chance to start on yet. But hopefully I will finish it by Sunday afternoon so I can write the paper by Wednesday. *sighs* The book is Rape of Nanking which is why I have the boo on nanking thing at the top of my page. This weekend is homecoming weekend, so we have the usual annual traditions, including one of my roomies and I's favorite activities, Jazz on the Overlook. People usually get all dressed up and go out to swing dance outside. This year it will be on the new Dottie Brock Gardens =) It's pretty cute over there, especially when they decorate it with little christmas lights and stuff. So it should be fun. I also have to get some practical service hours in either tonite or tomorrow. I think Amy and I are going tonight to do some stuff, because I have still lots of hours to do. Sad day =( Anyways..I think that is all I have to report. Pretty boring I know, but it's the end of week, you're lucky I'm still upright and slightly coherent.

Who writes,
Stefjenny

P.S. I made it through October 6th..who knows how I did on the presentations, but I made it =)

October 6th

*scary face*
So I've been dreading October 6th for like the last three weeks now, because I have two!!! group presentations that day, and I super duper hate public speaking. Like hate is an understatement. It's terrifying to me, and I dread doing it for like weeks, especially if I don't have a good handle on what to say. It is an actual fear of mine. I hate professors make you do it, because they have to know that some peole would rather die than speak out loud..that would be me. When speaking in front of peeople, my face gets red, my voice starts to shake, my hands start going, and I start talking altogether too fast. It's awful.. Anyways, tomorrow is written on my calendar as the day from the underworld. *sighs* Oh well..time never stands still right? I will get through it..even if I dont know how to..or even if I dont do the hottest job. I guess what irritates me the most is the research I was trying to do for one of them completely pooped out on me. I was reading all these pages and copying and pasting and writing important facts down..but then the computer shut off and I lost all of it..all of my work..so now..I am a crappy group partner.. =( It's tragic really..oh well I guess..c'est la vie..Pray for me tomorrow if you read this...and if you get the time...well that is all for today..short post..

Who writes,
Stefanie

Babies Springing Up Like Daisies

So..if you know me you know that I pretty much LOVE babies. If you didnt know that then you really don't know me well yet, or you are ignorant, blind, and deaf. Anyways, I am pretty much obsessed with babies and children. They pretty much rule my world with their cute presence. Speaking of which I am babysitting tonite :) Yay me! Anyways, that is besides the point. Okay, since I was 12 when I attended the Red Cross Babysitting course, I have been babysitting every chance I get. I mean I babysit way more than the average human has or will. It's true. Ask anyone! My nickname at my church was baby lady..I kid you not. Okay so I have babysat a bunch at church- the pastor's triplets and their little one, Matthew and Rachel, and recently at school I have a regular babysitting for a 2 year old named Julia who btw is just presh (except during dinner time). So pretty much since I turned 12 or 13 I have been waiting to have a baby, which obviously I cant do because hello I am 20 and not married and in college. So I still have a few years. However, my siblings are 32 and 28 and I have been waiting for them to get married and have babies. I have been waiting for like 8 years..and nothing..they werent even married. My sister is getting married in December and my brother just got married to Kendall last July and they were like no no we're waiting until spring 2010..and I was like dang..still not auntiehood for me.. BUT God always likes to have different plans for us then we have for ourselves. So on approximately May 20, 2009 I will have either a little niece or nephew. I am mega uber stoked and excited. =D Like cant even convey to you the excitement. My sister and I want it to be a little boy to carry on the Prager name, but I will be happy with either. But yep, I'm going to be Aunt Stef..I'm pretty much obsessed! Okay, now time to go babysit some other cuties!

Who writes,
Stefjenny