Summer Blues

Do I have the summer blues?
hmm..no..not exactly. I no longer have a job..no I wasn't fired..no I didn't quit..it's basically a long story of people not keeping their word so I basically have no job because they don't need me to work..which is a load and a half meaning I'm too lazy to start you and too cheap to let you work.

On the plus side? I got to spend all week with my nephew last week. That was a lot of fun. He's 5 weeks old now and he is squirming and noisy and I love him to pieces! It's already hard not to spoil him to pieces..I got him two presents yesterday..lol

Next week: Adam's parents are coming for a few days and will be here for the 4th of July. It will be good to see them again and show them my side of the country. :)

I don't have much to report..I would write some kid stories but I'm really bitter about the whole thing...so ask me on the phone or something or send me a message and I should be able to share some.

Hope you all are enjoying your summer!

Who writes,
Auntie Stefjenny :)

I am aware

I stink at this..I really will endeavor to do better especially since I have some GREAT stories from my job with 5th-8th graders..truly they are great stories. I kid you not. However, I have to get ready to go on a date with the boyfriend, so I will leave you with this.

My 21st birthday is on Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who writes,
Stefanie Rae

Feels like Forever..

Right?
Yeah I know. I haven't updated in over 2 months..whoopsie..School has been crazy busy and when I thought about posting I just kind of chose to do something else. Everyone has probably stopped checking my blog even..*gasp* well..I'll just have to call in the masses. So what is new in my life? Well..I have 11 more days of schools..thank goodness!!! I have no summer job yet. But I'm hoping something will turn up..something kind of fun and that will look good on my resume. Adam is coming to live in my town for this summer. =) I'm so excited..it will be nice to have him so close for longer than a week. He will be working at WIVK in the morning for an internship. Hmm..let's see what else is new. I went to Disney World for spring break with my parents! I had a blast..I really love it there. It is my happy place...for real. Umm..my nephew is due in just a few weeks. I can't wait to meet the little guy. He'll be a heartbreaker I'm sure. Although he is from my family..and we are usually too sweet to be heartbreakers. Ooo..I know what else I wanted to say. I got front row tickets to the mat kearney/erin mccarley concert for June 19 at the Bijou in Knoxville. I'm super pumpeda nd excited to go! Anything else I needed to report? *thinks* *ponders* I can't think of anything else. Oo! Yes I can! Next year I'll be living in the student apartments with only the three coolest girls ever! :) Can't wait! Alright..well that is my last update. I will write again soon..I PROMISE!

Who (tries to) write,
Stefjenny

Love is in the Air

Well..it's no surprise to any of you that Valentine's Day is coming. I'm pretty sure we all know that. Some of us are happy about that, while others choose to try to forget. But none of us can ever really forget. When I was little..Valentine's day meant decorating a pretty shoebox and getting Valentines from all the kids in my class. It was required that you give one to each student so as to not let anyone feel left out. That's a pretty good policy..because some kids are cruel and would make sure some little kid didn't get any Valentine's. No wonder so many people hate this holiday. Anyways..I even remember in 6th grade..keeping the Valentine one of the boys gave me because I liked him so much. *rolls eyes* It blew up in my face in 7th grade when some girls in my class told that boy. Oh..middle school..how I DON'T miss you. I don't even remember what it said that I thought it was sooo great..other than I think it was a toy story valentine and had the words Love, (his name inserted here). Sixth grade was the last time my whole class exchanged valentines..and I was sooo glad for that.

After that age though..Valentine's Day becomes more of a romantic thing. If you didn't have a boyfriend..that meant no candy, no flowers, no card and that meant a sucky day for you. I spent most of my Valentine's Days alone without a boy and usually spent it at home. Until 10th grade..when one of my guy friends who liked me asked me out. I didn't really like him like that. But it was a good time of going to eat out and getting icecream. I also got my first flower, a pink rose, that day. I think that's when I started to hate Valentine's Day less. I mean I spent the next three Valentine's Days alone..but it was almost a day for me to be nostalgic. A day for me to look forward to when I actually had someone to share it with. Plus, my parents are notorious for giving me little things for Valentine's which always softened the blow.

Also..in the last I don't know 2 years I guess..Love has been blooming everywhere. Now..I have two possible theories for this. One being that people are just getting more loving to each other..people are just pairing up like they usually do in the springtime, but will eventually break up and that it is nothing really serious, and it might just possibly be that I'm ignorant and didn't notice it before. My second theory is that I'm at that age now where everyone I know is getting engaged and married or even just dating seriously. I am pretty sure that is at least part of it..but my cousin got married last year at 38, my brother the year before that at 31, my sister in december at 29, my best friend at age 20..now I have to ask myself see..that doesnt really seem to have to do with me being a certain age where my friends are getting married..Because most of these people were old enough awhile ago. So is it something in the air? perhaps the water? The same water that is turning all pregnancies into little baby boys? The world may never know.

All of this to say is..my boyfriend is coming for Valentine's Day..and I'm extremely excited to spend it with him on my surprise date. =) But I can always commiserate and understand why sooo many people hate it. That 6th-9th grade version of me understands completely!

Who writes,
Stefjenny

Laptop Help!!!

Hey everyone! I was wondering if anyone might be able to tell me what is wrong with my laptop/power cord/power jack/I don't know. A few weeks my power cord stopped working..but then I realized it would work if I taped it a certain angle on the computer. The internet seems to tell me that means it's a broken power jack.. But then today it won't charge at all and my AC Adaptor beeps at me. I ordered a new AC adaptor..but does anyone know what might be wrong with it? Or if lots of things are wrong with it. Please help if you know anything!!

S

It's been a long day..week..year..time..

It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is make it strong
It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is I've been wrong
So take a leave of absence
Tell me you'll be gone
I don't want to see your face
It's been a long day
And I just want to hide away
It's been a long week
And all the lines come down heavy on me
It's been a long week
I'm finally feeling like it's okay to break
into a thousand pieces
no one can replace
only I can find my way
It's been long day
And I just want to hideaway
It's been a long year
And everyone around me's disappeared
It's been a long year
And all this mess around me's finally cleared
So can I have a moment just to say hello
Can you let your anger go?
It's been a long year
And I'm finally ready to be here...

This song is sung by Rosi Golan..I first heard it on my favorite tv show...everyone should know what that is..no? fine. you fail. Anyways, it's One Tree Hill. I quickly grew to love it. I think it's because the words kind of ring true in my life. However- it's taken me more than a year to conquer my wanting to just hide and not be angry. That's why my title has time written on the end of it. I'm actually waiting to say the words "And I'm finally ready to be here." I think the reason I like this song so much is because it is the start of a new year..It's January..and if you know me..you know how much I really don't like January and February..I don't believe in luck or karma or any of that junk..but I must say January and February don't really have good track records for me. But this time every year I get contemplative..I reflect and I try to let the past just go and be the past..trying to be ready to be here..not necessarily here at school (although most days I'm still trying to adjust to that too even as a junior)..but more importantly I'm trying to be ready to be in this moment..right here..where I am..I think I have some more growing and healing to do before I can be ready..but I do really like this song..and you should go listen to it..it's on my myspace profile if you want to listen... www.myspace.com/stefjenny88

Who writes,
Stefanie Rae

Texting..

Is it good or is it bad? It's both in my opinion. However, I find it to be mostly bad and slightly obnoxious. Let me tell you why I don't like it much and then the times where I think it is good. First of all, texting takes out the wonderfulness of an actual phone conversation. Instead of hearing someone's voice, you text an ENTIRE conversation. A five minute phone conversation becomes at least a 30 minute texting conversation. Ridiculous? I think so. Not to mention there is something nice about hearing someone's voice on the phone..especially my boyfriend or just talking to my mom about our day. Reason 2 I hate texting. Sometimes, I find that is rude and distracting. If someone in the movie theater is texting and I see their little light blinking or hear them clicking or hear the vibration..I get a little frustrated. It's okay if it is done once like maybe to tell someone they are in the movie..but seriously..the whole time? Why didnt you just bring that person along then??? Also, I think it's kind of annoying when you are trying to talk to someone and they are busy fiddling with their phone or texting someone..I had a friend like this once (we arent friends anymore for many reasons =( )..but when we would hang out I constantly felt like she would rather be talking to someone else. If you are hanging out with someone, dont text someone else the whole time. It's frustrating. Another example is this other friend of mine while we were on a trip to do mission work texted a majority of the time..making it really hard to talk or get to know them. Also, electronics were supposed to be used to a minimum. Also, texting your boyfriend or girlfriend all day long isnt romantic to me. 1) Talking on the phone and spending real quality time with each other seems betters and 2) It eventually leads to your being bored with one another b/c you've run out of things to talk about. Anyways, those are my reasons for not liking texting..I could probably keep going, but I won't.

The pros:
It's handy for when I am in class or somewhere else and have to ask someone a question and I obviously can't get on my phone right now. It's also nice if I just have one thing to say to someone such as "Had fun tonite..see you tomorrow" or something to that effect. It's also nice to get a text message in the middle of the day from my boyfriend that says "hope classes went well..love you." And there is also another pro..however, it is a pro which kind of makes us all pansies. It's when you really dont want to talk to someone- you are either afraid, don't like them, don't want to hear what they have to say, etc, etc. This is probably a bad thing- because we probably should call that person- but as a shy person and one who likes to go under the radar..I will count this as a blessing from time to time =) However, I still feel like texting is taking over the world.

Alright, so this will probably offend some people..but oh well..it's my blog and I can post my own thoughts right? School starts Tuesday. Bleck. Not even a little excited.

Who writes,
Stefjenny